What’s up?

I think after that last blog, I wasn’t sure where to go. It is more a teaching than a sharing and I am more comfortable with teachings. When it’s a sharing, I have to figure out what to share. So, since I don’t know, I’ll give you the quick overview of the last two months—we had 1) the major period of discouragement and insecurity 2) planning and schedule madness 3) vacations 4) gearing up for back to school and back to living with a schedule

1) I went through a period of real discouragement. I would sometimes stop and think that this must be spiritual attack and pray and I would have a minor letup in the onslaught of feelings of worthlessness and despair. But any ‘good’ attack will go after a weak area so getting the enemy to clear off was helpful but I was already an emotional basket case at any point that I realized the source of the trouble. I have joked before that I have prosecuting attorneys in my head who are entirely ruthless and they are limited only by my ability to use logic, thus I sometimes pray for ‘angelic lawyers’. But a lot of prayer later, I’m back to a normal level of discouragement and insecurity (which will hopeful approach zero before I die)
2) Strangely, my schedule and that of those people whose lives intersect with mine became complex. I spent more time with my schedule book on the phone negotiating in that 10 day span than I had doing scheduling for the year up to this point.
3) Then we had the actual vacations and pseudo-vacations themselves. Part of the time, my son and I were staying at my mother’s house taking care of her dogs. She told us to rummage for any food we wanted—so we ate steak and I had a delicious bowl of spaghetti and something else that I really enjoyed at the time, that was the good side. The bad side is that I don’t usually sleep well when I’m away from home, and I didn’t sleep well at all. Later, we went to St. Louis. That was good, I hung out with my Dad and got to see where he and his wife had moved to. We went to this cool place called The City Museum—it was part playground and part obstacle course and we had a great time. I know that I’m not unfit, but I need to exercise a lot more than I have been.
4) We are now to the 'gearing up for the new school year' which is going to be at a different building this year. We have my son’s birthday coming up as well, which means a party with children and a visit from my mother-in-law (who I like though I don’t always know what to talk about with her). Plus, we are looking at the budget and trying to decide what expenses we can cut and what is really worth it for us.

So, there it is in a nutshell. I hope that the return to a more predictable schedule will make it easier to make progress on all of my writing tasks. And maybe I’ll blog more often… but no promises.